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A Day From Hell

Have you ever experienced a day from hell?
We just had one.
We are devastated.
Our sweet, adorable, beloved Owen,
our 10 month old Boston Terrier,
died yesterday.
It was a tragic, bizarre accident.
He jumped out of the car window
while connected to a leash
and hung himself.
I can’t go into any more detail –
I can’t stop crying.
I can’t stop blaming myself.
With all the best of intentions,
with love for Owen as the motivation,
we left him in a situation
that we never in a million years
anticipated would turn out so horribly.
If you don’t hear from me for awhile,
you will understand why.
I am so so so sorry!!!!!
My heart is broken in a million pieces.

He filled all the empty places in our heart and home…
he was such a sweetheart…
learning and growing…
and now he is gone.
A day from hell…

I can’t stop blaming myself.
We were gone less than 5 minutes.
We never should have left him…
Woulda, shoulda, coulda…
Heaven help us!

kid hiding on pillows
I wanna hide
and never come out!

Devastated…
JanBeek

What a Week!

Problems
Creep in
Usually they’re unbidden
Happened all week long
Blame

Gifted
With Love
From my Lord
I did move forward
Strength

Possibilities
Are fueled
By firm beliefs
Making hard things easier
Faith

One step at a time
Life is easier with faith
Just follow the Light!

This last one’s a Haiku, but the preceding series of three poems (written in the German-inspired style of Elfchen or Elevenie) shares a total of eleven words in each poem, with a sequence by line of one, two, three, four, and one words.

I hope you had a good week.
Enjoy your weekend.
Thanks for visiting JanBeek.
See ya tomorrow.

BYE!!
BEEEEE Well.